My fears.
Well, i have every reasons to doubt myself but nothing replace self confidence, you just gotta think beyond yourself!
Why bother climbing this mountains if i don't think i could succeed. There is no room for self-doubt.
I'm afraid i can't cope with my studies and for that i will bring notes and revise them. I know the teachers in CHR would want us to do well.
I'm afraid of the unexpected outcomes we will have on top. Eg. The effects of the altitude, getting nauseated.
But that, we will have the teacher's in charge to handle.
There was one part of mt.kinabalu where the weather was really hot (2am)and we were wearing our winter gear. At that point, i was about to give up and just strip everything off me.
I was on the verge on crying and you don't know how #$%^&*()_)(*&^%$%^ i felt. That itself was a whole new experience for me. I hope i can overcome that during the climb at EBC.
I hope after this trip, my relationship with family and friends tie wouldn't strain off, i really hope everyone I care about to live well, laugh alot, and be loved much during my 18 days trip.
And 'drum roll'......... I'M REALLY SCARED WHEN I RETURN, MY DOG WOULDNT RECONGIZE ME OR MAYBE MAYBE I MISS A HUGE 50% SALE OFF. AIYOAIYOAIYO

Preparation.
Ohhhh this topic.
Our training is really harsh.
no one lace up a pair of sneakers or mountain shoes and run 7km or climb staircase at 7pm,especially on school days.
long distance is about the lon haul and trekking is about perseverance.
there were days if i wouldn't sure if she could run or trek but i can always run and trek if i want to make it a effort.
In my mind, i was thinking or rather chanting, 'Just keep on plodding on, GO GO GO', knowing that with every step comes with a great reward. even a little bit everyday.
We girls just have to endure the pain in order to success.
I'm going to be dressed in layers. i must also buy specially design panties that can wick moisture rather then absorbing it. Cool right.
The important gear are boots, jackets made out of gortex(wind resistance,waterproof), socks, gloves.
OH! and I must really hand it to the early explorers who did big climb.

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